joining

Wow. A whole summer has flown by and here I sit, 5 days away from one of the biggest decisions in life. Yet, I am peaceful, hopeful, confident and humbled to be stepping into a new realm. This lady that I fight for, frustrate and love is embarking on a journey with me, to take in each moment of the day as the special opportunity from Christ to embody all that is selflessness and love. I must say it is a rather daunting idea- knowing all that I have ever remotely attempted to hide will now be on full display to this lovely woman. She will know me in ways that no other human ever has, or will. She will see my deepest insecurities and my greatest triumphs- all the while desiring my bold protection and unconditional love. I will continue to realize how prideful, selfish and childish I am- as Christ challenges, convicts and molds me through her. It will be the ultimate reflection of beauty and suffering that I can know on this earth. The marriage relationship will beckon me to see Christ in a fresh way.

I prepare myself to live differently- to share, to clean up more often, to shave a little more, to give, to think less of myself.

And I will reap the joy of marriage- two different, imperfect humans attempting to mold together as one-as Christ showers His love on us.